Hey guys, well here I am again, posting another blog entry when there's so much that I can be doing around the house. Today is Sunday, which means I need to do laundry, vacuume, dishes, and recycle. Then I need to run to the store to buy a paper and take advantage of a really great sale, and then who knows from then on. It's supposed to be hot today and with no A/C this is gonna be a fun one.
So where have I been the last almost two months you ask? Well when I last left you, I was in the planning stages of going on vacation to Colorado. We ended up driving 6 1/2 hrs up to Victor which is a lovely little mountain town with lots of character. Notice I said character and not people. It was sleepy to say the least, and certainly not as exciting as it was made out to me in the beginning but all in all, I liked being up there. On the other hand, I ended up suffering from altitude sickness and not sleeping for 2 days straight. We ended up coming down the mountain to Manitou Springs CO and spending a day there before moving on. We came home ( since we only live a few hours away ) and then went back to Golden CO to see the Coors Brewery and Animal Sanctuary. It was a fun vacation despite the no sleeping part and Colorado is a beautiful state with lots to do. Since we've been home, the boy has picked up piano lessons and has been doing a great job so far with them, and we've been trying to find more and more things to occupy our day. Some days it's going to the pool to get sunburned and swim all day, and some days it's going to a friend's house to spend time. I really hate sitting in the house now a days and now that I've grown my wings, I need to stretch out and fly. Of course the MR gets irritated with me for that reason, and I just shrug and do what I damn well please anyway. He's the one who moved me in the middle of nowhere, and so as far as I'm concerned he has no reason to complain when I find things to do.
Anyway, the girl celebrated her birthday a few days ago and it was a fun time. We spent it with friends at the local rec center, swimming and eating cupcakes. Good times. I really can't believe how big she's growing. My preemie isn't so helpless and small anymore. I'm both proud and sad. All things grow though and she definately is. The boy is in the beginning stages of teenagerhood and has a mouth and attitude to match. I really can't wait for school to start up again. I miss my peace and quiet.
The garden has bounced back remarkably and is now starting to produce. Granted so far it's just been a trickle. A few strawberries, a couple tomatoes, a cucumber, and a pepper, but they're growing and blossoming and soon I'll have more produce than I can manage. That's a good thing though because I know quite a few people who could benefit from the excess.
I've been trying to live frugally lately and it's not working out very well. Everytime I manage to pass up a spending opportunity, another one hits us and I break down. It's not like my life depends on being frugal, but I just love having the extra on hand in case something happens. Right now, I'm trying to avoid the cost of a window unit for our house since we do not have A/C. I think a simple 100 dollar one would suffice, but the MR wants to get a 400 dollar one " because it's what our house requires". UGh..it's always like that though. Always has to have the best and most expensive. Imagine how irritated I must be on a daily basis. Lately that's all I seem to be. I can't pin down any one reason for it, but it's not like if I could, I would change. It's just not in my DNA to do anything different. That fact is irritating in itself. So many people say " oh but you can if you just believe!" and I roll my eyes and say , "ok Peter Pan". Life doesn't work that way. You cannot survive just on love and a strong belief that things will be ok. Most of the time it's about quiet saccrafices that go unnoticed and for good reason. Nobody likes to think that life is hard. They want to think that true love conqures all, and hard work is rewarded and virtue is key. But it's not. Love doesn't exist for some, and hard work only makes life harder, and it doesn't matter how virtuous you are, you will never be rewarded for that either. Sometimes life is about hiking up your pants and chasing down the bull and letting it trample you for the sake of others. Happiness never comes to some, and that's ok because sooner or later, you get used to it. You get used to putting on a prosthetic smile, and nodding happily at moments where most people would find complete bliss, but you're so far down in your misery that you cannot fathom why you should be happy about anything. Life has moments that make you smile, but your heart never smiles anymore because it's burdened with trying to function. That's life people. Not that sappy disney shit that makes you say " ohhh life is so grand". The boy sometimes never gets the girl, the sick never get better, people live their entire lives fighting until they die, and then they are forgotten. Welcome to the real world. Well, the blog started out promising anyway...sorry for the gloom and doom.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Thoughts
As I sit here and type this, the turkeys are singing a very loud morning song. It always cracks me up to hear them react to each other as they do. One will start whistling and then the other 2 will do it in response. It's amazing to me how animals can develop such personalities. We've name them by the way. Tyson, Hercules, and Dora. Tyson is he alpha male as it would seem. He's the dare devil that will attempt to fly, and ends up crash landing in the process. He's the loudest, and the one with the most feathers. Dora is the only female of the group ( we think ) and the meanest. She pecks Hercules, and steps on every body's heads and steals their treats. Then there's poor little Hercules. The other male, ( we think ) and the most submissive of the three. Dora has been pecking his behind for a while now, and as a result, it's pretty gruesome. I've had to save him from Macgyver wanting to dispose of him, and I separated him from the other two, in hopes that he can heal. So far he looks like he's doing ok. He's still eating, and drinking and grooming and chirping and moving around alright, it's just his underside that looks gross. So here's hoping he heals. In other news, the end of school is in sight. Only two more days. I'm not really happy about this. Not because I'll have kids home all summer, but because I feel like they are growing up way too fast. My babies are not babies anymore. They're growing and learning and becoming adults. Although I know not for a long time yet, but still. Not happy.
In other news, I'm not sure if our garden is going to survive. It has been nothing but chilly and windy for the past since we've planted it. The tomatoe plants are laying on their sides, and some of the leaves on the other plants are yellow and curled. I've tried to water them just enough and not drown them, but with the rain we had, and the weather, I don't know. If we get any crop this year, it'll be amazing. I REALLY want a sturdy green house honestly, to keep the plants safe from the elements, but that would be REALLY expensive. Not sure why it's so windy either. I mean I know Nebraska is windy, but I don't remember it being THIS windy for THIS long. Today it's supposed to be a warm 68 but it won't feel like it because the wind gusts are supposed to be as high as 40mph. I'm about tired of it all. We shall see if mother nature decides to calm down or not.
Also, in a few weeks, we will be going on vacation. I can't wait. We're going to go to Colorado to go gold panning. Should be an interesting experience. Don't worry if we strike it rich I'll let yall know.
Ok well my attention is now diverted, so more later.Until next time.
In other news, I'm not sure if our garden is going to survive. It has been nothing but chilly and windy for the past since we've planted it. The tomatoe plants are laying on their sides, and some of the leaves on the other plants are yellow and curled. I've tried to water them just enough and not drown them, but with the rain we had, and the weather, I don't know. If we get any crop this year, it'll be amazing. I REALLY want a sturdy green house honestly, to keep the plants safe from the elements, but that would be REALLY expensive. Not sure why it's so windy either. I mean I know Nebraska is windy, but I don't remember it being THIS windy for THIS long. Today it's supposed to be a warm 68 but it won't feel like it because the wind gusts are supposed to be as high as 40mph. I'm about tired of it all. We shall see if mother nature decides to calm down or not.
Also, in a few weeks, we will be going on vacation. I can't wait. We're going to go to Colorado to go gold panning. Should be an interesting experience. Don't worry if we strike it rich I'll let yall know.
Ok well my attention is now diverted, so more later.Until next time.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Mother's Day
Hey everyone! Well let me just say it's been a BUSY few weeks. Basically the weather has gotten warmer, and NOBODY wants to stay inside for too long. As it is, I'm tapping out this blog while I procrastinate cooking dinner. It's a brisk 85 degrees out there, and this is the kind of weather that makes even the animals lazy. Speaking of animals, we added 3 new members to our "herd".
That's turkeys folks. For now, they're babies, but once they get a wee bit bigger we can set them loose in our yard and they can fatten up on grasshoppers and various other bugs. We're not going to eat these guys though, they're already like family. Next week, we'll be getting guinies. They're kinda like chickens but not and they eat the ticks and sand spurs we have going on around here. Can't wait!
Changing gears, we went to a few yard sales last weekend, and found some new cabinets for our kitchen. Not a complete set mind you but when you're on a budget, you have to get the things you want in pieces. I think they look nice.
Please excuse the mess. I'm currently a slob.
Yesterday, we finished up our garden. Well ok, not completely finished, because we still have the potatoes to go into the ground, but for the most part, done! Macgyver put up the fence, while the kiddos and I planted the plants. Hopefully in a few months, we will have fresh tasty veggies and a smaller grocery bill. We are growing tomatoes ( of course ), cucumbers, banana peppers, potatoes, squash, strawberries and carrots. We also planted a peach tree, but if you did around my past blogs, you will find the post about that. We also learned our lesson last year with the weeds, and are trying out this fabric you put down to protect the plants. All in all, it was a lot of back breaking work, but hopefully worth it in the end.
It looks small in that pic, but trust me, it's big. Bigger than last year anyway.
So today being mother's day, I have been forcing myself to think about what it means to be a mother, and I came up with a few things. See list below.
1. You will wake up to the sound of kids fighting over the last doughnut, not birds chirping.
2. You will find yourself using the phrase " stop eating your boogers" a lot.
3. Kids meals will never be enough to satisfy a kid. They will always look to your plate to fill them up instead.
4. No matter how much fun they had the day before, kids will ALWAYS tell you that you never do anything for them and whine because they're bored.
5. They say the darndest things, usually around other grownups and usually those grownups do not have kids.
That's just a few that happened to me TODAY. But I would not trade it for anything in the world.
So now with all that being said, I must cook dinner for my brood, get them cleaned, and then fight the good fight for bedtime. Until next time.
Changing gears, we went to a few yard sales last weekend, and found some new cabinets for our kitchen. Not a complete set mind you but when you're on a budget, you have to get the things you want in pieces. I think they look nice.
Yesterday, we finished up our garden. Well ok, not completely finished, because we still have the potatoes to go into the ground, but for the most part, done! Macgyver put up the fence, while the kiddos and I planted the plants. Hopefully in a few months, we will have fresh tasty veggies and a smaller grocery bill. We are growing tomatoes ( of course ), cucumbers, banana peppers, potatoes, squash, strawberries and carrots. We also planted a peach tree, but if you did around my past blogs, you will find the post about that. We also learned our lesson last year with the weeds, and are trying out this fabric you put down to protect the plants. All in all, it was a lot of back breaking work, but hopefully worth it in the end.
So today being mother's day, I have been forcing myself to think about what it means to be a mother, and I came up with a few things. See list below.
1. You will wake up to the sound of kids fighting over the last doughnut, not birds chirping.
2. You will find yourself using the phrase " stop eating your boogers" a lot.
3. Kids meals will never be enough to satisfy a kid. They will always look to your plate to fill them up instead.
4. No matter how much fun they had the day before, kids will ALWAYS tell you that you never do anything for them and whine because they're bored.
5. They say the darndest things, usually around other grownups and usually those grownups do not have kids.
That's just a few that happened to me TODAY. But I would not trade it for anything in the world.
So now with all that being said, I must cook dinner for my brood, get them cleaned, and then fight the good fight for bedtime. Until next time.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
A Thrifty Day
Well today was a good day. Mcgyver and I drove our new Ford Focus to town, getting 35 miles per gallon, and only burnt a teaspoon of gas it seemed. We drove to Goodwill and dropped off a few tshirts, and then we went to Staples, and took advantage of some rebate savings. We got a pop up tape dispenser, and a pack of mechanical pencils free after rebate. Then we went to the mall, and got his ring fixed because somehow he managed to smash it at work one night. That was free also. Then we drove to Gary's Superfoods and that's where I got the most of my savings. I picked up 4 tony's pizzas, 4 2 liters of pepsi products and 1 can of redi wihp for 8.48 cents total! I had a cupon for 1 dollar off 2 pizzas and 50 cents off 2 pizzas. 35 cents off a can of redi whip and a 1 dollar off 4 sodas. Combined savings of 6.66! Yes, I know freaky right? Well here's a pic of my bounty!
See I've discovered the trick to getting things relatively cheaply. The trick is, buy only sale items and only the items you have cupons for. I've been managing to get bags of rolls for less than half off what they originally cost, bags of frozen veggies for pennies, and while I cannot extreme cupon, due to the fact that my stores do not double, and put HUGE restrictions on cupons and items, I am still managing to save a bit of money, and stock my fridge. I pour over the circulars every wednesday, viewing them online and whenever Mcgyver brings them home for me. Then I look at what cupons I have, and I go! I wasn't able to do this before. We had next to ZERO money to do any extra shopping with, so now that I can do a little bit, I'm having a field day! I love being able to run to the store every couple days and snatch up a deal. Also, I must say that after we did that amazing shopping , I went to subway where it was a dollar off my favorite sub, so I managed to pick up a footlong sub for 4 dollars, not 5. Aweesommmeee. Top that with the fact that Mcgyver sold his motorcycle for 5k, so that's 5k we can put towards our car, dropping the total down to just 9k left owed! Woop!
See I've discovered the trick to getting things relatively cheaply. The trick is, buy only sale items and only the items you have cupons for. I've been managing to get bags of rolls for less than half off what they originally cost, bags of frozen veggies for pennies, and while I cannot extreme cupon, due to the fact that my stores do not double, and put HUGE restrictions on cupons and items, I am still managing to save a bit of money, and stock my fridge. I pour over the circulars every wednesday, viewing them online and whenever Mcgyver brings them home for me. Then I look at what cupons I have, and I go! I wasn't able to do this before. We had next to ZERO money to do any extra shopping with, so now that I can do a little bit, I'm having a field day! I love being able to run to the store every couple days and snatch up a deal. Also, I must say that after we did that amazing shopping , I went to subway where it was a dollar off my favorite sub, so I managed to pick up a footlong sub for 4 dollars, not 5. Aweesommmeee. Top that with the fact that Mcgyver sold his motorcycle for 5k, so that's 5k we can put towards our car, dropping the total down to just 9k left owed! Woop! Anyway, I just wanted to tap out a quick one to brag about my savings. More to come I'm sure. Now if the weather would cooperate, I can start planting and then save even more! Hopefully it'll happen soon. Until next time lovelies.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
What a dreary day
It's so gray out there. All the colors mesh together and all I see are gray and bright green. Bad weather is looming and we even have a severe winter watch on our hands. All this and in the last few days, we've had nothing but beautiful weather. Weather nice enough that I could open the windows and allow the breezes to blow through my house. But right now, not so much. The heat is on and I'm back to doning sweat pants, socks and sweatshirts. Oh well. It'll pass hopefully and nothing but beautiful planting weather will ensue. I'm kinda glad we didn't plant our strawberries the other day like I was really pressing Macgyver to do. I'm just kinda worried about our little peach tree. I hope it can survive.
Soccer practice has been called off today and reschedule for 30 minutes before the game on Sunday. HOPEFULLY the weather isn't miserable like it was last Sunday. It was just horrible. Still the princess managed to score two goals and come away with a big grin on her face, not to mention a slight limp. Sports are rough on kids, but she's managing.
I have some chocolate chips in my freezer just begging to be made into something. Cookies are overdone, I want to do something awesome with them. Any ideas?
Anywho, I'm all sorts of scattered today so will continue some other time when I'm not. Until next time.
Soccer practice has been called off today and reschedule for 30 minutes before the game on Sunday. HOPEFULLY the weather isn't miserable like it was last Sunday. It was just horrible. Still the princess managed to score two goals and come away with a big grin on her face, not to mention a slight limp. Sports are rough on kids, but she's managing.
I have some chocolate chips in my freezer just begging to be made into something. Cookies are overdone, I want to do something awesome with them. Any ideas?
Anywho, I'm all sorts of scattered today so will continue some other time when I'm not. Until next time.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Cupon Rant!!!
Ok, so yah I know that those shows like "Extreme cuponer" is good for MOST people.. but what about those of us in the middle of nowhere, that do not have a choice of grocery stores like they do in those shows? Yes, it's amazing you can wittle your bill from 1200 bucks to only 150, but what about MEEEEEEEEE??? It seems unfair that the grocery stores we DO have, do NOT double coupons, And I always seem to miss the sales for some reason. I'm s irritated that it's almost a hateful spite I feel towards these people who can do amazing things with thier cupons. Not because I'm jealous of thier haul, but because I'm mad that our own grocery stores do not offer that. I guess I just need to find other ways to save money and realize that when you life in BFE Nebraska, there's no way you're going to save money on anything unless you work harder than the average person. *huff*
Monday, April 11, 2011
HOLY BREAD!!
Yes, I did it again! I am so excite at how wondefully I did on this loaf, I just had to share. It's so pretty!!
I think I might try to tackle some sort of sweet bread next. I know with bread, you can basically put anything you want in it, but I'm still new to this. I just perfected the art of using a glass meatloaf pan to make bread, so I still gotta catch up I suppose. Maybe I can make a cinnamon & raisin bread? Well either way, I think I might also make some home made cinnamon rolls later too. I am gonna have to stock up on yeast that's for sure. I just wanted to brag...Until next time!
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Sunday Funday! ( well, not quite )
Hey everybody! Well it's Sunday and you know what that means right? Yes, house cleaning day. Fun fun! Though you know, I really can't complain much after the results. The princess is young enough to still want to help out all the time, and I can usually get rid of my messy boy to his friend's house if need be. There's nothing like picking up a pair of boots and rocks falling out onto your floor by the ton. I don't even know how they walk in shoes like that! I know as a kid, I hated it when my socks even bunched up. ( still do! ) I did notice that since I started a regular Sunday cleaning regiment, my allergies aren't so bad, and that's a good thing since I live on a dirt road in the country and have two dogs and a cat to mess me up. It's just staying on top of dusting that's a pain in the you know what. Oh well we'll manage.
It was my neice's birthday yesterday and so I called her up ( in the middle of her party ) and sang her happy birthday. My sister told me she looked confused, but that doesn't surprise me if you knew my sister. She's a bit confused herself but I love her. I really wish I could see them more, but you know distance prohibits that. I would be able to get around the distance if not for my own activities and family here on the homestead. It's getting into planting season, and family vacation season, and swimming season, so I'm finding it hard to get away. Not that I really want to anyway, I mean I love her to death but I'm actually enjoying Nebraska right now, and there's TONS to do. I do hope to make it out in September when she has baby noodles, but I think that's a pipe dream. September, the kids will have just started school, and Macgyver won't have any vacation time saved up. I think I've already exausted my inlaws too as they were here taking care of my brood a few years ago for almost 3 weeks when I went to New York and Virginia, and they came again when I got sick and was in the hospital. It might work out though so keeping optimistic.
I wish I could visit my other sister too , but she had to go way the hell out to Germany. :P If I even brought the subject up to Macgyver he'd have my hide. We just can't afford the plane ticket these days. Well I have three years, maybe sometime in the near future? We'll see though. It just makes me sad because I have a niece I haven't even met yet, and a nephew I haven't seen since he was 6 months old. I don't want them to not know who I am. Plus a brother in law I've never met either. One day though.
I can hear the heathens stirring in thier rooms. Good thing mom has a " no getting out of your rooms til 8 on a weekend " rule in our house. So I can squeeze at least 20 more minutes of me time in before they demand my attention. I'm thinkin' pancakes and sausage today for a good hearty breakfast. Gonna need it to get this day going. The princess has a soccer match today and while she's really good at it, and she likes to play, she's been complaining about the shin pads. Leave it to my kid to be picky about things. Oh well
Macgyver has been on the hunt for a rear tine tiller, ever since he got sticker shocked at the store and realized just how much a new one would cost. The neighbors have one just sitting in thier front yard in the elements, and he has been eyeing that, but I'm afraid it might be a lost cause. As far as I'm concerned, anything that looks like junk, has got to be junk and thus not worth the effort, still when Macgyver gets his mind set on something, it's hard to convince him otherwise. Speaking of, hes' been talking lately about wanting to go back into debt for a electric car, or to convert one of our beaters into a propane but I'm really not wanting to do that. I know sooner or later I'm going to have to crush his dreams because we REALLY can't afford it right now. Besides, I think it's a dumb idea anyway. He's chalk full of them usually but now I can't afford to let him chase them because they take money away from our family. He gets mad, but oh well. Can you tell I have a little resentment for him and his money spending ways? Well that's another issue entirely and I will not get into it here.
Yesterday we had a nice family day. It was a warm 81 degrees and so we had a picknick at the park. It was lovely! Got to watch the kids play and chow down on some good food. Food always taste better when you eat it outside in my opinon anyway.
Well I must flee for now, the brood is starting to demand some breakfast and I suppose I should feed them before they turn to cannibalism. Until next time my lovelies.
It was my neice's birthday yesterday and so I called her up ( in the middle of her party ) and sang her happy birthday. My sister told me she looked confused, but that doesn't surprise me if you knew my sister. She's a bit confused herself but I love her. I really wish I could see them more, but you know distance prohibits that. I would be able to get around the distance if not for my own activities and family here on the homestead. It's getting into planting season, and family vacation season, and swimming season, so I'm finding it hard to get away. Not that I really want to anyway, I mean I love her to death but I'm actually enjoying Nebraska right now, and there's TONS to do. I do hope to make it out in September when she has baby noodles, but I think that's a pipe dream. September, the kids will have just started school, and Macgyver won't have any vacation time saved up. I think I've already exausted my inlaws too as they were here taking care of my brood a few years ago for almost 3 weeks when I went to New York and Virginia, and they came again when I got sick and was in the hospital. It might work out though so keeping optimistic.
I wish I could visit my other sister too , but she had to go way the hell out to Germany. :P If I even brought the subject up to Macgyver he'd have my hide. We just can't afford the plane ticket these days. Well I have three years, maybe sometime in the near future? We'll see though. It just makes me sad because I have a niece I haven't even met yet, and a nephew I haven't seen since he was 6 months old. I don't want them to not know who I am. Plus a brother in law I've never met either. One day though.
I can hear the heathens stirring in thier rooms. Good thing mom has a " no getting out of your rooms til 8 on a weekend " rule in our house. So I can squeeze at least 20 more minutes of me time in before they demand my attention. I'm thinkin' pancakes and sausage today for a good hearty breakfast. Gonna need it to get this day going. The princess has a soccer match today and while she's really good at it, and she likes to play, she's been complaining about the shin pads. Leave it to my kid to be picky about things. Oh well
Macgyver has been on the hunt for a rear tine tiller, ever since he got sticker shocked at the store and realized just how much a new one would cost. The neighbors have one just sitting in thier front yard in the elements, and he has been eyeing that, but I'm afraid it might be a lost cause. As far as I'm concerned, anything that looks like junk, has got to be junk and thus not worth the effort, still when Macgyver gets his mind set on something, it's hard to convince him otherwise. Speaking of, hes' been talking lately about wanting to go back into debt for a electric car, or to convert one of our beaters into a propane but I'm really not wanting to do that. I know sooner or later I'm going to have to crush his dreams because we REALLY can't afford it right now. Besides, I think it's a dumb idea anyway. He's chalk full of them usually but now I can't afford to let him chase them because they take money away from our family. He gets mad, but oh well. Can you tell I have a little resentment for him and his money spending ways? Well that's another issue entirely and I will not get into it here.
Yesterday we had a nice family day. It was a warm 81 degrees and so we had a picknick at the park. It was lovely! Got to watch the kids play and chow down on some good food. Food always taste better when you eat it outside in my opinon anyway.
Well I must flee for now, the brood is starting to demand some breakfast and I suppose I should feed them before they turn to cannibalism. Until next time my lovelies.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Peaches peaches everywhere!!
Well, not yet. Hoping though by next year. We bought ourselves a peach tree!! Spent the majority of the day pulling up this pole thingy in the back yard, only to move the hole a few feet from it and having to re dig. Nothing like making more work for yourself, but it's planted and hopefully by next year, producing. We should at least get some pretty flowers this year if anything on it. I love nature. I love planting. It's a lot of work though but I did make sure to grab a handful of dirt and take a big ol wiff. It was lovely! Here are some pics.
Pulling the pole thingy out the only way we know how.
Gathering manure while the "source" looks on.
Holding the truck down.
Yay tree!
Pulling the pole thingy out the only way we know how. 
Gathering manure while the "source" looks on. 
Holding the truck down.
Yay tree!So moving on, I also re discovered one of my older cookbooks, circa 1971. I love the old recipes and want more of them. Will have to start hitting up flea markets soon. Anyway, that's our adventure for now. Soon we'll be planting strawberries too and then tilling the garden. I can't wait! But I must dash and pick up the younin's. Until next time my loves.
Gardening season is almost here!!!
It's getting closer! I can feel it. The weather is losing it's bitterness, and turning wet and warm, and the smell of the air is crisp. Walking into stores, you find all sorts of bbq and gardening things. I'm getting more and more excited. I LOVE SPRING! Ok, *sips coffee* I'm better now. But for reals... we bought a peach tree the other day with intentions on planting it once the wind decides to stop blowing so hard. I'm very excited and so are the kids. Macgyver informed me that he will be excited once he can grab a peach off the tree and eat it. Well at least he's happy? We also purchased 30 strawberry plants. Last year we were too late and could not find ANY. This year though, we hopped on it ahead of time and grabbed them soon as we found em. Macgyver is currently looking at tillers, and wants a rear tine sooooooooooo badly. Unfortunately for him, they're about 800 bucks, so he's going to have to just borrow one for now. The neighbors have one just sitting out in the elements, and he's been eyeing that one too. Payday he plans on going over and asking them about it. Hopefully he can get it cheap and there's nothing wrong with it. Realistically it's probably just a pile of crap. Oh well. Saturday we're planning on having a family day. The plan is to drive to Kearny about an hour and a half away and surprise the boy with a meal at Red Lobster. Then going to K-Mart and shop around since we don't have one here. I'm expecting to pick up quite a bit of thier spring wardrobe there. K-Mart is usually good for that. I wish we had a Ross, but there's not one nearby. It sucks though and I'm NOT going to TJ Max. That place sucks. I'm working on furnishing the last two bedrooms we have. One I want to be my office, so that I can FINALLY free up the dining room table of my mess and we can stop eating in front of the tv, and the other to be a guest bedroom with a queen sized bed, incase any family wishes to visit. *hint hint* or friends too I guess but mainly family. I'm actually becoming quite content living out here. Maybe it's the horsepoop that's gone to my head, but it's nice. I mean, quiet, and spacious and yet, have a concentrated mass of decent people right around me. I know half of them and the other half know OF me. Everytime I go into the school, people smile at me and ask me how I'm doing and some even ask me if I work there. It's kinda funny but I love being that involved. I'm becoming quite content with a lot of things actually. My weight being one of them which is really ironic since it's been the biggest thing that's tortured me for years. But I've decided to just let it go, and just take care of myself the best I can. If I never get skinny again, so be it. I can be fat, and happy. Long as I'm healthy, which I am. Just no idea why I can't drop it, or keep gaining. I guess I could get it checked out, but I'm kinda tired of doctors at the moment and I don't trust them anyway. Well enough about that....
I think Macgyver is finally starting to get on board with my crazy chicken idea. I told him yesterday that with all the grasshoppers we tend to get, we'd never have to buy food and the chickens would be very happy. Also fresh eggs! I'm trying to cook breakfast more and more, like actual hot food with meat and eggs. It's expensive though but better to eat a big meal at the start of the day than at the end. We also might get some goats too. I guess we're turning into quite the little farm out here, and that's ok. Because we really should get back to our roots. It was simpler that way. Maybe more work but you felt good at the end of the day. Americans are missing that. Everything is just too easy for us, and we're growing girth wise because of it. Before you had to harvest your own food, grind the grain into flour, make the bread, now we can just walk into the store and get it. We had to hunt our own food, kill it, clean it, cook it. Now you just drive to a window and order it. That's not a very good long term plan if you ask me. Anyway, I'm off. It's gonna be a beautiful day and I'M GOING TO ENJOY IT! Much love.
I think Macgyver is finally starting to get on board with my crazy chicken idea. I told him yesterday that with all the grasshoppers we tend to get, we'd never have to buy food and the chickens would be very happy. Also fresh eggs! I'm trying to cook breakfast more and more, like actual hot food with meat and eggs. It's expensive though but better to eat a big meal at the start of the day than at the end. We also might get some goats too. I guess we're turning into quite the little farm out here, and that's ok. Because we really should get back to our roots. It was simpler that way. Maybe more work but you felt good at the end of the day. Americans are missing that. Everything is just too easy for us, and we're growing girth wise because of it. Before you had to harvest your own food, grind the grain into flour, make the bread, now we can just walk into the store and get it. We had to hunt our own food, kill it, clean it, cook it. Now you just drive to a window and order it. That's not a very good long term plan if you ask me. Anyway, I'm off. It's gonna be a beautiful day and I'M GOING TO ENJOY IT! Much love.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Spring?? Maybe? Sorta? ok...
Hey guys! Well tapping out a quick one before I have to boogie up to the school again for today's DI performance. We didn't make it to state unfortunately but that's sorta a good thing as I've had my fill of DI for one season. Crazy enough I will most likely do it again next year. That's because I believe in the program. It enforces creativity which is something today's youth seems to lack. It is exausting though.
So as I sit here at my dining room table, I am surrounded by cookies. Boxes and boxes of cookies that I cannot eat. :( They are for the school's carnival tomorrow, and I'm still not done. I have about 150 more to make. *sigh* Plus have to pick up about 200 bags of potato chips today as well. Fun times lemme tell ya.
The princess started soccer yesterday, and she loves it!!! She's a natural too. Macgyver has to run out tomorrow and buy her shin gaurds though and so hopefully they're not all that expensive. Her uniform is adorable though. Pink, her favorite color. She looks adorable in it too!
Other than carnival and soccer, we've been just kinda flitting around from one activity to another. Not really home enough to blog but still trying to fit it in. Well it's that time again. I must flee. Will write more and hopefully not be so scattered next time. Until then..
So as I sit here at my dining room table, I am surrounded by cookies. Boxes and boxes of cookies that I cannot eat. :( They are for the school's carnival tomorrow, and I'm still not done. I have about 150 more to make. *sigh* Plus have to pick up about 200 bags of potato chips today as well. Fun times lemme tell ya.
The princess started soccer yesterday, and she loves it!!! She's a natural too. Macgyver has to run out tomorrow and buy her shin gaurds though and so hopefully they're not all that expensive. Her uniform is adorable though. Pink, her favorite color. She looks adorable in it too!
Other than carnival and soccer, we've been just kinda flitting around from one activity to another. Not really home enough to blog but still trying to fit it in. Well it's that time again. I must flee. Will write more and hopefully not be so scattered next time. Until then..
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Things..
Hey guys, well what can I say? This life I live is a crazy one indeed. Lately I've been so busy that sitting down and having a regular thought has totally become unattainable. I've been working really hard with my DI kids in preparation for our tournament on Saturday. We have to drive all the way to Potter which is by mapquest's calculatons 1 hour and 47 minutes. Not only that but we have to spend the entire day there. I mean granted it might be entertaining, but I have to keep track of 5 kids all day and it's going to wear on me. Watch, I will probably have white hair by the end of the day. Oh well at least it's almost over. Unless we make it to state which is a good chance we will. And if we do, I will be proud because this is my first time coaching DI and it would be a pretty neat accomplishment to bring home a state title to the school for our division. I'm totally doing a pizza party for the rugrats tomorrow after school, and hopefully we nail our final practice.
Also on the agenda, is the school's carnival. I know I've blogged before about it, but this seems to be an ever pressing matter in my life these days. Right now we're dealing with collecting all the donations, ticket sales, and trying to find decorations for our " Panther Pirate Party" Which we will have neither our school mascot or colors, or pirates. It's going to go with our old themes we've had before, but nobody seems to be particulary worried about it. I feel really bad for the HELP club president because she's been stressing out a lot over this carnival. I guess I know what position I DON'T want next year. haha I'm good with being a worker ant, not so much the leader. I'd lead us all off a cliff I'm just that absent minded. But again, I'm off subject. I'm not worried about the carnival, at least my part is done. I just have to collect everything. I'm pretty stoked we managed to get 31 pizzas donated though. It's going to be a good time. I "volun-told" Macgyver that he was going to grill 240 hot dogs for me. bwahahahahaha That'll teach him to annoy the cheese outta me.
After carnival comes soccer season. Yes I've become that mom. I'm quite certain I will be the one bringing snacks and trying to help out in any way I can. That's just the type of person I am though. I like to help and if I can help my child or any child for that matter get a better experience out of something, I will. We shall see how the princess takes to running all over a field kicking a ball. Should be some interesting pictures anyway to come.
Speaking of pictures, I was reading a frugal blog today and came across pictures of this blogger's pantry and freezer. So I decided to snap my own. This is the day of grocery shopping mind you, even though it looks somewhat empty I promise you there's enough food in the freezer and pantry and fridge to last 13 days for 4 people. You will have to turn your head for these as I can't figure out how to move them.
Have fun playing " I spy with my little eye" with my pics. I know I did!
My inlaws come to town tomorrow too. yay.. can you feel my enthusiasm?? I haven't done one single thing to get this house in order either so tomorrow will be cleaning cleaning cleaning! Oh well, no rest for the wicked.
I'm trying to set up a playdate with like 6 kids on Sunday, but lo and behold just as I got everybody on the same page as to when to get here, soccer coaches called up telling me first practice was on that exact date and time. Lucky me. Now I get to scramble to try to find everyone and get them rescheduled. Ohh woe is me.. I asked for this though when I decided to become more involved in society. I can't complain too much though because having things to do is just so much nicer than sitting on my ass moping about being bored all the time. I can honestly say Nebraska hasn't been boring yet. I mean sure there are days that I just feel like drag on forever, but those days are very few. I think I might actually *like* living here. *cringes* We'll see though. Ask me again in a few years how I feel.
So I was talking to MacGyver the other day about our plans for the summer garden. The topic of goats came up and I think we might actually get some. I know we'll probably get some chickens. I'm kinda excited about this because chickens would give us fresh eggs, and I'm sure we can figure out how to use the goats. I mean they'd be able to keep our grass down to a managable level and maybe one day we can actually find a liking to thier milk. I dunno though. At least they'd make cool pets for the kids. I would LOVE to get the ones that fall over and play dead when you scare them. That would be good times.
Can you believe I've lived here almost 2 years already? I know I can't. Life has certainly picked up. Summer time will be full of swimming and picnicks and parks, and bike riding and all that comes with it. I'm going to make sure of it.
We are planning a trip to Colorado in June to go panning for gold. We're going to be staying at the same campground we stayed at when we went to see Mt.Rushmore. It was a very pretty campground and I'm glad to be going back to it and exploring the town. Who knows, we might even get lucky and hit gold. Weee!! Maybe.. it could happen stop laughing!
I know my thoughts are all over the place but I'm pretty tired and that usually happens when I'm tired. My brain just needs to turn off, but there's probably no chance at that happening. I can try though. So with that being said.. until next time!!! Nebraska mom OUT!
Also on the agenda, is the school's carnival. I know I've blogged before about it, but this seems to be an ever pressing matter in my life these days. Right now we're dealing with collecting all the donations, ticket sales, and trying to find decorations for our " Panther Pirate Party" Which we will have neither our school mascot or colors, or pirates. It's going to go with our old themes we've had before, but nobody seems to be particulary worried about it. I feel really bad for the HELP club president because she's been stressing out a lot over this carnival. I guess I know what position I DON'T want next year. haha I'm good with being a worker ant, not so much the leader. I'd lead us all off a cliff I'm just that absent minded. But again, I'm off subject. I'm not worried about the carnival, at least my part is done. I just have to collect everything. I'm pretty stoked we managed to get 31 pizzas donated though. It's going to be a good time. I "volun-told" Macgyver that he was going to grill 240 hot dogs for me. bwahahahahaha That'll teach him to annoy the cheese outta me.
After carnival comes soccer season. Yes I've become that mom. I'm quite certain I will be the one bringing snacks and trying to help out in any way I can. That's just the type of person I am though. I like to help and if I can help my child or any child for that matter get a better experience out of something, I will. We shall see how the princess takes to running all over a field kicking a ball. Should be some interesting pictures anyway to come.
Speaking of pictures, I was reading a frugal blog today and came across pictures of this blogger's pantry and freezer. So I decided to snap my own. This is the day of grocery shopping mind you, even though it looks somewhat empty I promise you there's enough food in the freezer and pantry and fridge to last 13 days for 4 people. You will have to turn your head for these as I can't figure out how to move them.
My lovely fridge.
My inlaws come to town tomorrow too. yay.. can you feel my enthusiasm?? I haven't done one single thing to get this house in order either so tomorrow will be cleaning cleaning cleaning! Oh well, no rest for the wicked.
I'm trying to set up a playdate with like 6 kids on Sunday, but lo and behold just as I got everybody on the same page as to when to get here, soccer coaches called up telling me first practice was on that exact date and time. Lucky me. Now I get to scramble to try to find everyone and get them rescheduled. Ohh woe is me.. I asked for this though when I decided to become more involved in society. I can't complain too much though because having things to do is just so much nicer than sitting on my ass moping about being bored all the time. I can honestly say Nebraska hasn't been boring yet. I mean sure there are days that I just feel like drag on forever, but those days are very few. I think I might actually *like* living here. *cringes* We'll see though. Ask me again in a few years how I feel.
So I was talking to MacGyver the other day about our plans for the summer garden. The topic of goats came up and I think we might actually get some. I know we'll probably get some chickens. I'm kinda excited about this because chickens would give us fresh eggs, and I'm sure we can figure out how to use the goats. I mean they'd be able to keep our grass down to a managable level and maybe one day we can actually find a liking to thier milk. I dunno though. At least they'd make cool pets for the kids. I would LOVE to get the ones that fall over and play dead when you scare them. That would be good times.
Can you believe I've lived here almost 2 years already? I know I can't. Life has certainly picked up. Summer time will be full of swimming and picnicks and parks, and bike riding and all that comes with it. I'm going to make sure of it.
We are planning a trip to Colorado in June to go panning for gold. We're going to be staying at the same campground we stayed at when we went to see Mt.Rushmore. It was a very pretty campground and I'm glad to be going back to it and exploring the town. Who knows, we might even get lucky and hit gold. Weee!! Maybe.. it could happen stop laughing!
I know my thoughts are all over the place but I'm pretty tired and that usually happens when I'm tired. My brain just needs to turn off, but there's probably no chance at that happening. I can try though. So with that being said.. until next time!!! Nebraska mom OUT!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Pretty pictures and life in general
What can I say? Life ain't half bad at the moment. Things are picking up and it seems like I can never sit still, and the kids are happy and generally healthy and Macgyver and I are as well. Soon enough we will be able to break ground and start our garden. There's nothing like the smell of fresh earth in your hands and watching your plants grow and flourish. Some people are impatient when they put plants in the ground, but not me. Everyday it's a new discovery. Which seeds grow the fastest, watching the soil turn from brown to green to jungle like. Walking in between the rows and plucking the delicious fruit you've waited so long for. Taking that fist bite of a home grown tomatoe. My mouth is watering just thinking about it. Our garden is going to be MUCH bigger this year too. Trying lots of new veggies in hopes that they actually grow and we can cut down our grocery bill. I might have to get back into canning too, but that will be an experience.
It's eerie out. A sort of eerie fog has fallen on my piece of land and draped everything in a wet mist. I like it though. Makes you feel safe, and secure. Like a hug from the clouds. These are the days I like to go walking..when the fog hides you from the world. Course logically it's probably pretty dangerous but poetically it's romantic. I love the way the mist clings to my skin too, making me feel like I'm part of the fog. But anyways, I digress.
Been really really super duper busy lately which is good because then the depressive thoughts do not enter my head as often. Why depressed? I dunno, I guess I've always been. It's not one thing in particular and it's not crippling, just a sort of sadness I feel from time to time where I just want to be alone and sulk. I usually get over it pretty quick though and I do tend to look at the brighter sides of life. I mean I have so many things to be happy about, so I just focus on those. Still, the dark clouds are always in the forecast. It's cool though, I've delt with them for 30 years, I can deal with them for 60 more. ( give or take a few ) Anywho, I don't really have much on my mind other than all the crap I have to get done in the next few weeks, and I've already told yall about that, so I will now awe your senses with a few pictures I snapped this morning of the fog. Enjoy!!!
Everything's blue!
A taterman in the fog.
It's eerie out. A sort of eerie fog has fallen on my piece of land and draped everything in a wet mist. I like it though. Makes you feel safe, and secure. Like a hug from the clouds. These are the days I like to go walking..when the fog hides you from the world. Course logically it's probably pretty dangerous but poetically it's romantic. I love the way the mist clings to my skin too, making me feel like I'm part of the fog. But anyways, I digress.
Been really really super duper busy lately which is good because then the depressive thoughts do not enter my head as often. Why depressed? I dunno, I guess I've always been. It's not one thing in particular and it's not crippling, just a sort of sadness I feel from time to time where I just want to be alone and sulk. I usually get over it pretty quick though and I do tend to look at the brighter sides of life. I mean I have so many things to be happy about, so I just focus on those. Still, the dark clouds are always in the forecast. It's cool though, I've delt with them for 30 years, I can deal with them for 60 more. ( give or take a few ) Anywho, I don't really have much on my mind other than all the crap I have to get done in the next few weeks, and I've already told yall about that, so I will now awe your senses with a few pictures I snapped this morning of the fog. Enjoy!!!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Sick kiddos and Carnival time!
Hey guys, well I know it's been a few days, but bare with me. Been a lot going on.
I have a sick kid, and anybody with kids know it's never fun when they're sick. Running a fever, puking, whining. UGH. I know it's going around but it feels like sickness goes around A LOT these days. I mean A LOT. Is this the new form of biochemical war fare? I do have to wonder at times.
Other than that, I've been really busy trying to plan the menu for the school's carnival and get local places to donate food items. So far so good. I've managed to secure 16 pizzas, a case of chicken fingers, condiments, hamburger buns, orange drink, cups, potatoe chips, and lots and lots of desserts. So far I'm doing much better than the person who did it last year as so far, everything has been donated. PLUS we have a little over 100 bucks donated as well for things we need that we can't get donated. *happy dance* It's been stressful but all in all, a good experience. I've also been dealing with trying to get my Destination Imagination kids ready for competition on the 26th of this month. It's been a trip thats' for sure. I don't know what bug crawled up thier butts but it feels like I can't even controll them much these days. Oh well, it'll be over soon. *sigh*
The weather is turning a bit nicer here. We're not waking up to sub zero temps so that's always a good thing. I'm very eager to get in the garden and start plowing. I have friends who are already buying seed and tilling and I'm jealous. I want to do that! I would love to open my windows and air out my house. It's all stale and wintery here. Blahh
Soccer for the girl starts soon after the carnival. So April and May will be full of that. Then June we're taking a family vacation up to Colorado to go gold mining. Would be nice if we could find some. As it stands we're still hard pressed for money just like everybody else. I'm wondering how much more America will stand for all of this greed. Seems like the government keeps pushing us, and pushing us, and foriegn policy keeps pushing us.. I mean, it's only a matter of time before we snap right? I know personally, I'm getting really tired of paying the politicians pay checks when I can't even afford half the things I NEED for my own household. Gas for my car has gotten outrageous. I put 16 dollars in and only moved it a little bit. This isn't good for someone who lives in the country and needs to drive everywhere. I feel like America's fate is just teetering. I guess we'll see if it gets turned around or not. I sure hope so. Don't want to have to revert back to pioneer days when you had to stake your claim and protect it. Anywhoozles, that's about it for me. I need to go wake a kid up and get him on the bus.
I have a sick kid, and anybody with kids know it's never fun when they're sick. Running a fever, puking, whining. UGH. I know it's going around but it feels like sickness goes around A LOT these days. I mean A LOT. Is this the new form of biochemical war fare? I do have to wonder at times.
Other than that, I've been really busy trying to plan the menu for the school's carnival and get local places to donate food items. So far so good. I've managed to secure 16 pizzas, a case of chicken fingers, condiments, hamburger buns, orange drink, cups, potatoe chips, and lots and lots of desserts. So far I'm doing much better than the person who did it last year as so far, everything has been donated. PLUS we have a little over 100 bucks donated as well for things we need that we can't get donated. *happy dance* It's been stressful but all in all, a good experience. I've also been dealing with trying to get my Destination Imagination kids ready for competition on the 26th of this month. It's been a trip thats' for sure. I don't know what bug crawled up thier butts but it feels like I can't even controll them much these days. Oh well, it'll be over soon. *sigh*
The weather is turning a bit nicer here. We're not waking up to sub zero temps so that's always a good thing. I'm very eager to get in the garden and start plowing. I have friends who are already buying seed and tilling and I'm jealous. I want to do that! I would love to open my windows and air out my house. It's all stale and wintery here. Blahh
Soccer for the girl starts soon after the carnival. So April and May will be full of that. Then June we're taking a family vacation up to Colorado to go gold mining. Would be nice if we could find some. As it stands we're still hard pressed for money just like everybody else. I'm wondering how much more America will stand for all of this greed. Seems like the government keeps pushing us, and pushing us, and foriegn policy keeps pushing us.. I mean, it's only a matter of time before we snap right? I know personally, I'm getting really tired of paying the politicians pay checks when I can't even afford half the things I NEED for my own household. Gas for my car has gotten outrageous. I put 16 dollars in and only moved it a little bit. This isn't good for someone who lives in the country and needs to drive everywhere. I feel like America's fate is just teetering. I guess we'll see if it gets turned around or not. I sure hope so. Don't want to have to revert back to pioneer days when you had to stake your claim and protect it. Anywhoozles, that's about it for me. I need to go wake a kid up and get him on the bus.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Sapphire Eyes
Blazing right through me, through my soul, leaving scorch marks. Delightful in the pain. So blue, deeper blue than the deepest depths of the ocean. A deep ocean that holds the most tantalizing secrets. Reaching further into me than any ever has, and warming my soul with the most enriching light. Your laugher like the first birdsong in spring, waking up everything that lay slumber til you arrived. My body reacts, and the energy runs through my veins. Electric blue. Sapphire blue. Like two gems placed upon the crown of perfection. Shining brighter than the sun. The slow burn is a plesant one. I long to stare into them, losing my very being with reckless abandonment, but knowing I will forever be safe. No words are ever spoken, the Sapphires say it all.
Friday, March 4, 2011
For someone
I feel like a ghost in this world, without you by my side to make my reality real. Each of my senses a dulled version of what could be if only. The minutes tick by mockingly, and each one like a sledgehammer to my skull. All of this is madness, and I'm driven to the brink. I can see you there, with your arms out, waiting for me to fall into them, but I never take the plunge. Your mouth forms the words, but your voice is a hollow wind that brings naught a sound to these deaf ears. My eyes do not see, cept in your direction, where the aura shines brightly. I am blinded, so I stumble, deaf, and dumb. In no particular direction, but knowing for sure I am lost. I will never find my way, the beacon has turned away and shines in another direction. I feel cold without the sun upon my face, kissing my eyelids, making them flutter with warmth. My body a shell that echos with despair. Each bone aches and vibrates with sadness for the one I long for. My muse has left, and only cobwebs hang where the sun once shone. Only darkness. Only cold. Only the ticking of that blasted clock. I pray the next reality is not so cruel. I pray one day to feel the beating of your heart next to my cool cheek. I pray all these things, but this life, I am to live without.. alive, but not really living.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Something I'm randomly thinking about....
Love, it's a random feeling. Something you feel in your body that runs from the bottom of your toes to the tip of your nose. It's not that romanticized feeling that you lust and want, it's the feeling of KNOWING. Knowing that you could not survive one day on this planet without the other person or persons. Love isn't selfish and isn't confined to one person. Your heart can love as freely as it wishes, and you can love as you wish. Love is a fingerprint that does not match any other, and when you leave it, it's your mark on someone's soul. Love makes you do stupid things. Love is not biased, for it will shed pain on you at some point. You will feel like you're breaking in two, and you cannot go on, but love fixes itself. Love is the diseas that makes you sick and the cure that fixes you. Love is hipocritical, and spiteful. Love is most definately mis understood. Love is not all you need, and love is all you need. Love is something you don't realize you're in til it's gone, and something you inexpicably feel though not quite knowing how to put your finger on. Love is that taste in your mouth after a sweet kiss, or the sun on your eyelids as you snooze in the sun. Love is the breeze that blows through your hair as you laugh at a joke a friend spoke of. Love is realizing you will never get that moment back and yet somehow, it's ok because you always make new ones and remember the old ones fondly. Love just is. There's no stopping it, there's no denying it exists. Love is a many splendid thing, but the most pain you will ever know. Love just is.
The day after the beginning of the rest of my life....
So yesterday I turned 30. Everybody says that once you hit 30, your life changes, and you grow into yourself. Personally, I don't feel any different. The normal aches and pains of my 20s seem to have followed me here, and I guess all in all, I can't complain too much. I'm falling apart, but the journey so far has been worth it. Currently I am sitting home alone, listening to the cat snarf away at her cat food, and the dogs roam around the house bored. I feel thier pain. My family left hours ago on a trip to Kansas City and I opted to stay home and watch the mutts. It's relaxing but depressing at the same time. I miss my heathens.
The bright side is, I'm home alone..which means nobody to yell at, nobody to have to share my treats with, and I can do what I want! Though it's not really as glorious as it sounds. When you're used to the chaos, not having it just makes you feel.. lonely. OH WELL
We're supposed to get an icky storm tonight, that is supposed to bring with it ice and sleet. I went to walmart earlier and stocked up on a few essentials, ( dill chips and pizza yeahh!!! ) , and now bunkering down. Macgyver bought me a one hour massage out in town for tomorrow but I'm sure if the weather is as icky as they say it's going to be, I will have to reschedule. I don't mind though. Nowhere I have to be. One advantage of being so far out in the country is that you get back to what the basics really mean. Hanging out nightly with family, seting up your routines. I know that when I blink, my children will be older and having kids of thier own, and macgyver and I will be old and grey. I'm just cherishing the time I do have.
The princess has really started clinging to me lately and I'm not quite sure why. She makes me walk her to class in the morning and then she always says " I wish you could stay/eat lunch with me". I can't always stay though and it breaks her little heart. She didn't have an issue with this at the beginning of the year though. The wee man ( son ) was on the verge of tears today because I was not going with them on thier trip. He has been clinging to me too. The only thing I can think of is that ever since I got sick back in September, they have been really scared I will go away, and so they want to cling to me to make sure it doesn't happen. It was a scary time, and I haven't delt with it at all. I am making sure I stay healthy though, they need me around and magyver needs someone around to remind him to stop and eat once in a while. This house would fall into complete chaos if I wasn't here to maintain it. At least I know I'm important. Anywhoozles...
Spring is getting closer, but I think it's going to need a kick in the ass to come fully. Today it was 65 degrees! And tonight, 25 with freezing rain. I'm not quite sure what Nebraska is thinking having such wonky weather but it needs to STOP. I want to warm my toes in the sun already!!
Speaking of random subjects, I've been really working hard trying to get everything prepared for the school carnival. It's a lot to deal with and trying to get donations from people is like pulling teeth. I have faith it will all come together though. Hopefully...maybe... Yeah I have the faith.Meanwhile still trying to get my team prepared for competition on the 26th. My team meaning 5 4th and 5th graders. It's nerve racking because they are so hyper and wound up when I get them, but again, I have the faith it will go smoothly. So many things happening. April 2nd I will breathe a huge sigh of reliefe I'm sure. Anyway, I'm off now, to sit in the silence and ponder my mortality.
The bright side is, I'm home alone..which means nobody to yell at, nobody to have to share my treats with, and I can do what I want! Though it's not really as glorious as it sounds. When you're used to the chaos, not having it just makes you feel.. lonely. OH WELL
We're supposed to get an icky storm tonight, that is supposed to bring with it ice and sleet. I went to walmart earlier and stocked up on a few essentials, ( dill chips and pizza yeahh!!! ) , and now bunkering down. Macgyver bought me a one hour massage out in town for tomorrow but I'm sure if the weather is as icky as they say it's going to be, I will have to reschedule. I don't mind though. Nowhere I have to be. One advantage of being so far out in the country is that you get back to what the basics really mean. Hanging out nightly with family, seting up your routines. I know that when I blink, my children will be older and having kids of thier own, and macgyver and I will be old and grey. I'm just cherishing the time I do have.
The princess has really started clinging to me lately and I'm not quite sure why. She makes me walk her to class in the morning and then she always says " I wish you could stay/eat lunch with me". I can't always stay though and it breaks her little heart. She didn't have an issue with this at the beginning of the year though. The wee man ( son ) was on the verge of tears today because I was not going with them on thier trip. He has been clinging to me too. The only thing I can think of is that ever since I got sick back in September, they have been really scared I will go away, and so they want to cling to me to make sure it doesn't happen. It was a scary time, and I haven't delt with it at all. I am making sure I stay healthy though, they need me around and magyver needs someone around to remind him to stop and eat once in a while. This house would fall into complete chaos if I wasn't here to maintain it. At least I know I'm important. Anywhoozles...
Spring is getting closer, but I think it's going to need a kick in the ass to come fully. Today it was 65 degrees! And tonight, 25 with freezing rain. I'm not quite sure what Nebraska is thinking having such wonky weather but it needs to STOP. I want to warm my toes in the sun already!!
Speaking of random subjects, I've been really working hard trying to get everything prepared for the school carnival. It's a lot to deal with and trying to get donations from people is like pulling teeth. I have faith it will all come together though. Hopefully...maybe... Yeah I have the faith.Meanwhile still trying to get my team prepared for competition on the 26th. My team meaning 5 4th and 5th graders. It's nerve racking because they are so hyper and wound up when I get them, but again, I have the faith it will go smoothly. So many things happening. April 2nd I will breathe a huge sigh of reliefe I'm sure. Anyway, I'm off now, to sit in the silence and ponder my mortality.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Letting some stuff go...
It has become necessary for me to let a few things go and not harbor it in any longer. Due to my recent ulcer flare up, it's blatantly obvious that if I don't it could potentially kill me. So in an effort to save time, and not make my lack of grammar skills any more obvious, I will simply make a list. So here goes...
I am currently letting go of:
The notion that I am ever going to be skinny
Trying to please everyone every day
Angry thoughts that nag in the back of my head
Paranoia
My OCD to keep everything in it's place
My OCD to keep the kids in line, I will now share that responsibility with Macgyver more
Stressful people
My list is a short one for now, but in fairness it is nearly 6 am and I've been up a few hours. I have come to the realization that while some people have good intentions, they aren't exactly healthy for me to deal with, and so I will concentrate less on them and more on my family. Immediate and around the globe. I always feel bad that I have no real connection to either of my parents. I was doing the letter thing with my dad until he stopped writing and now I just don't feel inclined to write him anymore. I will simply wait for him to take initiative. I saw him a few years ago and that was something I really needed/wanted to do, and now that I have, I'm satisfied. I love my father, he was basically the only parent who ever showed his love towards me. But you know, I have to let go of the idea that one day we'll have this huge reunion and everything will be rainbows and sunshine. Cus it's not. When I went to see him, it was more akward than anything. Doesn't change the love I have for him though, and so I will move on. I really miss my siblings a lot. The ones that I've become close to in the last couple years. It's sad our lives keep us so far away from each other, but you know, that's how it goes. I really feel like they're finally growing into thier own and it makes me proud. Now that I'm getting more involved in life, ( took a while ) it's become apparent that I do not have all the time in the world anymore, and so I have to appreciate what time I do have connecting with my siblings.
In other news, I really really really can't wait for the weather to start warming up. My green thumb is getting itchy and I need to feel the earth in my fingers and toes. Smell it in my nose, and taste the fruits of our labor. I'm really hoping this year we can become more of a real life farmville and start becoming self sustainable. I'd like to be at least 35% self sustainable this year. So I will make that my goal. This year we are planting potatoes, carrots, tomatoes, cucumbers, maybe green peppers, leeks, cantalope, maybe watermelon, and I'm sure there will be more. I want to also use our fence for blackberrys and rasberries, and plant a plum tree. This is my goal. Nothing tastes as good as your own straight from the garden produce, and I love to watch the kids play outside and run to the garden for a snack. Both my kids love eating tomatoes fresh from the vine like apples. Just wash em off at the pump outside and dig in. You really noticed a difference between storebought and home grown tomatoes. The storebought are just so tasteless. Of course I did learn that they are pretty much given a high dose of radiation to turn them red before they're ready so they are ready for market. How gross. I like mine with spots and sweet tasting from mother nature's hand.
Who likes new recipes?? I know you want this one.
TACO SALAD
Need:
1 small can of chili beans ( do not drain )
lettuce
regular italian dressing ( use about half a bottle directly into the salad )
1 lb hamburger cooked
tomatoes
black olives
shredded cheddar cheese
Mix this all in a bowl together and serve with tortilla chips. Quick easy lunch or dinner and VERY tasty.
I'm always on a quest of new ways to pinch pennies. I love seeing how much I saved. Just the other day I saved the cost of a new cieling fan because I found a part in the garage that Macgyver thought he lost. Apparently the fan isn't made anymore and so he was looking up the price of a new fan when I got fed up and walked into the garage, directly to where it was, and picked it up. It's like I have a 6th sense or something for finding things. I just haven't located my sanity yet. Probably never will. Oh well. :P So go me for preventing yet another shopaholic moment. Yah I guess I should say Macgyver likes to spend money. A lot. He recently purchased a 50 something chevy. " But it's a good family project car!!" he whined. Well for 5000 we better be able to drive that bitch home. We could I guess, just not with any of the windows. Needless to say I'm a little miffed. We finally get out of debt and he puts us right back in. Well that's ok, just means I have to tighten the purse strings a little more for him and put him on a spending freeze. He's not going to like it but he will do it. My ideas have saved us so far. Anywhoozles I guess that's it for now. It's working on the time I have to wake the heathens up for school and I want to relax and enjoy my last cup of coffee before the madness begins. Until next time..
I am currently letting go of:
The notion that I am ever going to be skinny
Trying to please everyone every day
Angry thoughts that nag in the back of my head
Paranoia
My OCD to keep everything in it's place
My OCD to keep the kids in line, I will now share that responsibility with Macgyver more
Stressful people
My list is a short one for now, but in fairness it is nearly 6 am and I've been up a few hours. I have come to the realization that while some people have good intentions, they aren't exactly healthy for me to deal with, and so I will concentrate less on them and more on my family. Immediate and around the globe. I always feel bad that I have no real connection to either of my parents. I was doing the letter thing with my dad until he stopped writing and now I just don't feel inclined to write him anymore. I will simply wait for him to take initiative. I saw him a few years ago and that was something I really needed/wanted to do, and now that I have, I'm satisfied. I love my father, he was basically the only parent who ever showed his love towards me. But you know, I have to let go of the idea that one day we'll have this huge reunion and everything will be rainbows and sunshine. Cus it's not. When I went to see him, it was more akward than anything. Doesn't change the love I have for him though, and so I will move on. I really miss my siblings a lot. The ones that I've become close to in the last couple years. It's sad our lives keep us so far away from each other, but you know, that's how it goes. I really feel like they're finally growing into thier own and it makes me proud. Now that I'm getting more involved in life, ( took a while ) it's become apparent that I do not have all the time in the world anymore, and so I have to appreciate what time I do have connecting with my siblings.
In other news, I really really really can't wait for the weather to start warming up. My green thumb is getting itchy and I need to feel the earth in my fingers and toes. Smell it in my nose, and taste the fruits of our labor. I'm really hoping this year we can become more of a real life farmville and start becoming self sustainable. I'd like to be at least 35% self sustainable this year. So I will make that my goal. This year we are planting potatoes, carrots, tomatoes, cucumbers, maybe green peppers, leeks, cantalope, maybe watermelon, and I'm sure there will be more. I want to also use our fence for blackberrys and rasberries, and plant a plum tree. This is my goal. Nothing tastes as good as your own straight from the garden produce, and I love to watch the kids play outside and run to the garden for a snack. Both my kids love eating tomatoes fresh from the vine like apples. Just wash em off at the pump outside and dig in. You really noticed a difference between storebought and home grown tomatoes. The storebought are just so tasteless. Of course I did learn that they are pretty much given a high dose of radiation to turn them red before they're ready so they are ready for market. How gross. I like mine with spots and sweet tasting from mother nature's hand.
Who likes new recipes?? I know you want this one.
TACO SALAD
Need:
1 small can of chili beans ( do not drain )
lettuce
regular italian dressing ( use about half a bottle directly into the salad )
1 lb hamburger cooked
tomatoes
black olives
shredded cheddar cheese
Mix this all in a bowl together and serve with tortilla chips. Quick easy lunch or dinner and VERY tasty.
I'm always on a quest of new ways to pinch pennies. I love seeing how much I saved. Just the other day I saved the cost of a new cieling fan because I found a part in the garage that Macgyver thought he lost. Apparently the fan isn't made anymore and so he was looking up the price of a new fan when I got fed up and walked into the garage, directly to where it was, and picked it up. It's like I have a 6th sense or something for finding things. I just haven't located my sanity yet. Probably never will. Oh well. :P So go me for preventing yet another shopaholic moment. Yah I guess I should say Macgyver likes to spend money. A lot. He recently purchased a 50 something chevy. " But it's a good family project car!!" he whined. Well for 5000 we better be able to drive that bitch home. We could I guess, just not with any of the windows. Needless to say I'm a little miffed. We finally get out of debt and he puts us right back in. Well that's ok, just means I have to tighten the purse strings a little more for him and put him on a spending freeze. He's not going to like it but he will do it. My ideas have saved us so far. Anywhoozles I guess that's it for now. It's working on the time I have to wake the heathens up for school and I want to relax and enjoy my last cup of coffee before the madness begins. Until next time..
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Pictures of my homestead
Frosted trees early in the morning
Clouds before a tornado
The sky after a stormVirgin Post
Well at the prodding of my sister, I decided to give this blogging thing a shot. A little bit about me, I am married almost 12 years now and have two kids. I live in Nebraska, and am trying to carve out a life for myself and my family. I am 29 years old, but very much an old soul, and I love finding ways to save a few bucks. I have family all over the place, including Germany and I know I don't see them nearly as much as I like. I have a foul mouth and an even worse attitude, but I love beautiful things and so pictures of various subject matters will find thier way on this blog no doubt. All I can say is hold onto your hats because I tend to ramble in my posts, and sometimes there's no rhyme or reason to them other than that's how I felt at the time. Enjoy or don't, I can't force you to do anything. But I do hope you enjoy as I am really excited to start sharing tips and tricks I've learned over the years on raising kids, saving money, cleaning houses, gardening and various other things. Now that the intro is out of the way....
Today was a relatively busy day. I've kept myself busy tidying around the house more than usual. I can feel spring on it's way and it's making me giddy. A few weeks ago we actually had 60 degree weather! And then it got cold again. Oh well, mother nature is a tricky old bag. I managed to get a lot of cleaning done and so now I can go to bed at night knowing my house is in a relatively organized state. Until the heathens wake that is. MacGyver ( who is my nick name for my mr ) spent the majority of the day in the garage trying to get my beat up old clunker of a truck fixed. Apparently I did not have any back breaks, which would have been nice to know yesterday when I was carting myself and my children all around god's creation. Good thing for front wheel drive eh?? It's fixed now, and another 40 dollars down the drain on parts, but the good news is, we did not have to spend 100's of dollars to pay some mechanic to doodle around under the hood. I don't trust them afterall. It was bad enough I had to spend 1900 bucks a few months ago to get my transmission rebuilt, don't even GET ME STARTED on that mess. It's really hard for me to spend money now a days. Specially with gas prices up to 3.59 a gallon. Unfortunately until we discover a way to convert our cars to something less wallet draining, we're stuck paying for the gas because we live in the country and have to drive to get anywhere. Just sucks is all. Tomorrow I will be spending a good part of my day at the school, eating lunch with the princess ( my daughter ) and dealing with my son's afterschool club. I also have some running around in town to do, and not looking forward to that. I wanted to get to the rec center at some point to swim but looks like that's a no go, at least for tomorrow. *sigh* Anywhoozles, something I was thinking about today while I was doing laundry, if you must use dryer sheets, cut them in half! You will get twice the sheets, and they work just the same as a whole sheet. Of course in the warmer months I line dry but in the winter, can't exactly do that or Macgyver will be wearing iced over coveralls to work. Might be kinda funny to see, though I wouldn't be able to avoid the bitchin' that would ensue. Oh well.
My birthday is in a few days. I'm turning 30, and lots of people keep telling me that 30 is where your life begins. Eh, we'll see. I am not very optimistic about new beginnings. I'm quite content where I am.
I thought briefly about chickens today. yes chickens. We have them here in the country. They're birds, and they might be a bit tricky for me to deal with ( what with my bird phobia and all ) but the eggs they'd give us would be worth it in my opinion. We'll see. Also want to get my garden planned out. Going to be MUCH bigger this year than last. Might have to learn to can too. Oh well, my to do list keeps getting longer and my tolerance shorter.
On a more serious note, I've been dealing with a few health issues lately that have slowed me down quite a bit, and made me think a little more about my own mortality. Life is short, no matter how long you life, it's still a drop in the bucket compared to oh, say.. a dinosaur's life span? or a sea turtle? anyway, look at that, almost time for bed. Monday's on it's way.. hold on tight!
Today was a relatively busy day. I've kept myself busy tidying around the house more than usual. I can feel spring on it's way and it's making me giddy. A few weeks ago we actually had 60 degree weather! And then it got cold again. Oh well, mother nature is a tricky old bag. I managed to get a lot of cleaning done and so now I can go to bed at night knowing my house is in a relatively organized state. Until the heathens wake that is. MacGyver ( who is my nick name for my mr ) spent the majority of the day in the garage trying to get my beat up old clunker of a truck fixed. Apparently I did not have any back breaks, which would have been nice to know yesterday when I was carting myself and my children all around god's creation. Good thing for front wheel drive eh?? It's fixed now, and another 40 dollars down the drain on parts, but the good news is, we did not have to spend 100's of dollars to pay some mechanic to doodle around under the hood. I don't trust them afterall. It was bad enough I had to spend 1900 bucks a few months ago to get my transmission rebuilt, don't even GET ME STARTED on that mess. It's really hard for me to spend money now a days. Specially with gas prices up to 3.59 a gallon. Unfortunately until we discover a way to convert our cars to something less wallet draining, we're stuck paying for the gas because we live in the country and have to drive to get anywhere. Just sucks is all. Tomorrow I will be spending a good part of my day at the school, eating lunch with the princess ( my daughter ) and dealing with my son's afterschool club. I also have some running around in town to do, and not looking forward to that. I wanted to get to the rec center at some point to swim but looks like that's a no go, at least for tomorrow. *sigh* Anywhoozles, something I was thinking about today while I was doing laundry, if you must use dryer sheets, cut them in half! You will get twice the sheets, and they work just the same as a whole sheet. Of course in the warmer months I line dry but in the winter, can't exactly do that or Macgyver will be wearing iced over coveralls to work. Might be kinda funny to see, though I wouldn't be able to avoid the bitchin' that would ensue. Oh well.
My birthday is in a few days. I'm turning 30, and lots of people keep telling me that 30 is where your life begins. Eh, we'll see. I am not very optimistic about new beginnings. I'm quite content where I am.
I thought briefly about chickens today. yes chickens. We have them here in the country. They're birds, and they might be a bit tricky for me to deal with ( what with my bird phobia and all ) but the eggs they'd give us would be worth it in my opinion. We'll see. Also want to get my garden planned out. Going to be MUCH bigger this year than last. Might have to learn to can too. Oh well, my to do list keeps getting longer and my tolerance shorter.
On a more serious note, I've been dealing with a few health issues lately that have slowed me down quite a bit, and made me think a little more about my own mortality. Life is short, no matter how long you life, it's still a drop in the bucket compared to oh, say.. a dinosaur's life span? or a sea turtle? anyway, look at that, almost time for bed. Monday's on it's way.. hold on tight!
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