Hey guys, well here I am again, posting another blog entry when there's so much that I can be doing around the house. Today is Sunday, which means I need to do laundry, vacuume, dishes, and recycle. Then I need to run to the store to buy a paper and take advantage of a really great sale, and then who knows from then on. It's supposed to be hot today and with no A/C this is gonna be a fun one.
So where have I been the last almost two months you ask? Well when I last left you, I was in the planning stages of going on vacation to Colorado. We ended up driving 6 1/2 hrs up to Victor which is a lovely little mountain town with lots of character. Notice I said character and not people. It was sleepy to say the least, and certainly not as exciting as it was made out to me in the beginning but all in all, I liked being up there. On the other hand, I ended up suffering from altitude sickness and not sleeping for 2 days straight. We ended up coming down the mountain to Manitou Springs CO and spending a day there before moving on. We came home ( since we only live a few hours away ) and then went back to Golden CO to see the Coors Brewery and Animal Sanctuary. It was a fun vacation despite the no sleeping part and Colorado is a beautiful state with lots to do. Since we've been home, the boy has picked up piano lessons and has been doing a great job so far with them, and we've been trying to find more and more things to occupy our day. Some days it's going to the pool to get sunburned and swim all day, and some days it's going to a friend's house to spend time. I really hate sitting in the house now a days and now that I've grown my wings, I need to stretch out and fly. Of course the MR gets irritated with me for that reason, and I just shrug and do what I damn well please anyway. He's the one who moved me in the middle of nowhere, and so as far as I'm concerned he has no reason to complain when I find things to do.
Anyway, the girl celebrated her birthday a few days ago and it was a fun time. We spent it with friends at the local rec center, swimming and eating cupcakes. Good times. I really can't believe how big she's growing. My preemie isn't so helpless and small anymore. I'm both proud and sad. All things grow though and she definately is. The boy is in the beginning stages of teenagerhood and has a mouth and attitude to match. I really can't wait for school to start up again. I miss my peace and quiet.
The garden has bounced back remarkably and is now starting to produce. Granted so far it's just been a trickle. A few strawberries, a couple tomatoes, a cucumber, and a pepper, but they're growing and blossoming and soon I'll have more produce than I can manage. That's a good thing though because I know quite a few people who could benefit from the excess.
I've been trying to live frugally lately and it's not working out very well. Everytime I manage to pass up a spending opportunity, another one hits us and I break down. It's not like my life depends on being frugal, but I just love having the extra on hand in case something happens. Right now, I'm trying to avoid the cost of a window unit for our house since we do not have A/C. I think a simple 100 dollar one would suffice, but the MR wants to get a 400 dollar one " because it's what our house requires". UGh..it's always like that though. Always has to have the best and most expensive. Imagine how irritated I must be on a daily basis. Lately that's all I seem to be. I can't pin down any one reason for it, but it's not like if I could, I would change. It's just not in my DNA to do anything different. That fact is irritating in itself. So many people say " oh but you can if you just believe!" and I roll my eyes and say , "ok Peter Pan". Life doesn't work that way. You cannot survive just on love and a strong belief that things will be ok. Most of the time it's about quiet saccrafices that go unnoticed and for good reason. Nobody likes to think that life is hard. They want to think that true love conqures all, and hard work is rewarded and virtue is key. But it's not. Love doesn't exist for some, and hard work only makes life harder, and it doesn't matter how virtuous you are, you will never be rewarded for that either. Sometimes life is about hiking up your pants and chasing down the bull and letting it trample you for the sake of others. Happiness never comes to some, and that's ok because sooner or later, you get used to it. You get used to putting on a prosthetic smile, and nodding happily at moments where most people would find complete bliss, but you're so far down in your misery that you cannot fathom why you should be happy about anything. Life has moments that make you smile, but your heart never smiles anymore because it's burdened with trying to function. That's life people. Not that sappy disney shit that makes you say " ohhh life is so grand". The boy sometimes never gets the girl, the sick never get better, people live their entire lives fighting until they die, and then they are forgotten. Welcome to the real world. Well, the blog started out promising anyway...sorry for the gloom and doom.
